3 months ago

Dear Holdy-poo:

Three months ago today, you changed my life. Before you were actually here, I knew that you would, but I had no idea to what extent.

You really are the best part my life, and I never knew how much I could love someone. The past three months have gone by so so fast, and that makes me sad, but I can't wait for you to get older, and start talking, and walking, and learning everything there is to know about this crazy world. I can't wait to teach you whatever you want to know, and for you to ask those questions that seem way too mature for you to ask, but I just know that you will want to know.

I love how far you have come in the past three months. I love how you study my face, and then after about 2 seconds you recognize me and a huge smile comes over your face. It is like you smile with your whole body, your arms start flailing and your legs start kicking, and I know you know it is me.

I love how much you love your dad. You guys are best buddies, and I love that you are so good for him. Thank you for not being a pain in his bum (even though he is probably a pain in yours sometimes!)

You always are so alert and happy. You can hold your head up perfectly now. I might just be a proud mom, but it seems like you are extra strong! When you sit on my lap and kick my stomach I remember how bad it hurt when you did that when I was carrying you.

I hate leaving you every morning, it literally breaks my heart every day. I can't wait until I can hang out with you all day, instead of coming home every night and seeing how much you have grown in 10 hours it seems. Even thinking about how cute you were this morning, when I got to play with you for a few minutes while Daddy made you a bottle makes me smile. You are so cute in the mornings, it is your favorite time of the day. It is like you are so happy to see us after the 10 hours you were in sleep zone. And we are just as happy to see you.

And even though we are probably teaching you a bad habit, I love the way that you love American Idol just as much as your daddy and I. You only get fussy on the commercials.

I love you nugget. You are my sunshine. I am so grateful for you in my life. Thank you for being you. I can't wait for the next month, and the rest of your life!

Love, Mom.